Thank You | Day in the life RCD

Hello RCD readers,

Today is my last day for my discount. And I have to take a look back at these amazing three years. And here I was stuck..

This was the hardest blog post to write for October. I have no idea why. The words " thank you. I'm so grateful". They are so haunting in my mind. Because they are true. As I wrote " God voorziet, niets ontbreekt" as my work page bio status. This is nothing but the whole truth.

I rewrote this blog post like about three times. And I'm giving this a last chance 9 o'clock at night the day before. Just three hours before it's scheduled.  

So let's start at the beginning before I came up with ending October with a "Thank You" blogpost. September ended and I was thinking about content for the new month. Something that was so easy became so hard for me. Finding time to take a look back into my old content over the years, my clips & pics saved that I never shared of project's and life milestones. 

I had to go back.

While I went back looking for reels to repost. I came upon a monthly recap reel. And it made me think on that moment when I took the camera and filmed driving. I filmed my personal daily activity. This gave me so much exposure and work. And was also my signature once in awhile showcase in a reel behind the scenes. It was a shorter plus easier version of making video content for YouTube but on a smaller audience because it would be mainly for Suriname potential client's. I re-watched this clip so many times that day. Thinking about going for the first time to a site visit for a "WhatsApp client". Driving back home and seeing my nephews first because they missed me.

Empty home

I'm going off base again. But that time I was alone. And not in sense of alone relationship wise ( romantically or platonic). But living alone for the first time for a couple of times that time. It wasn't scary going to an empty house. Like somebody told me it would be. I was kind of empowering and felt faith based.

Faith Based

I could feel God was looking out for me. I notice my normal behavior that I tune out daily because my house is never empty. I notice I eat differently. What my preference is in entertainment, food , relaxation. etc.   I noticed how I act when I need to depend on myself for everything. It gave me a taste of what life is as an adult.

Build in confidence

And it really helped my later on becoming more confident by not asking consistently what my next step or business move should be. I relied on my wisdom and God's guidance. And I started to stand firm in my decisions. 

Didn't tell a soul

Nobody knew. Not the rest of the family. I think one friend did know. But overall I didn't want to make a big deal. And I didn't have the answers for all the unnecessary questions friends and family would ask about that stage of my life. It wasn't my story to tell. I was just the one who God trusted to be the helper. So I carried my cross and relied on the Lord a lot. The character growth was noticeable for me. 

A year back 

I saw a quote that said if you went a year back you'll notice how much has changed. And it made see the changes. 

A year back I was just getting into the grove. 

I had to get used slow months. And start creating buffers for those months. So that everything monthly expense. I had to get use to knowing who would be my client's. By using my intuition every time. I had to get used to rejection, failure and sometimes disappointment from things and people you thought differently off. I had to figure out how to do my finances, administration and marketing well and really quick. I had to figure out professionalism 101 and communication 101 on the go. I had to remove fear and focus on God. Because a lot was unknown and I needed God's wisdom. Not only to believe that I had enough work and life experience to figure shit out. I had to figure out how to deal with awkward conversations. I had to learn a lot about time management and creating space for selfcare which just became a priority this year. I had to know who is ultimately in control of it all. I had to invest and make time to learn new things for personal growth and business growth.

And we look at this year

Life is going well. Not perfect but so blessed. I had so many first consultations and site visits this year than years before. Not always a yes but always a learning experience. I'm still perfecting my process. I still need a lot of work.  I have so many happy client's. I created bonds with clients who will always come back because they enjoy the service and the loved the work I've done in the design. I'm thankful for the busy days. I'm thankful for the blessings and most of all peace plus joy I get from this experience.

Before I go I would love to share this

What a privilege to be tired from work you once begged the universe for.

What a privilege to feel overwhelmed by growth you used to dream about.

What a privilege to be challenged by a life you created on purpose.

What a privilege to outgrow things you used to settle for.

Thank you for you support , believe in RCD studio. But most of all I thank God for his guidance, love, wisdom and protection.