Finding My Anchor

​Hello, RCD readers!
​Can you believe we’re already in November? With less than two months left in the year, I’ve hit that familiar stretch where I sit down to evaluate everything.

​I know a lot of people dread year-end reflection, but for me, it’s how I keep myself zen and grounded. It keeps me productive and gives me an honest look at whether I actually finished what I set out to do. (And spoiler alert: most of the time, I don’t!)

​Looking back, I have goals on my list that have been sitting there since 2020. But there’s one goal from way back in 2019 that stands out above the rest: I wanted to get closer to God.
​For years, I made attempts. I tried reading my Bible for nearly five years, but I’d start and never really follow through. I went to church, but if I’m being completely honest, I went for the wrong reasons. I wasn't truly in tune or connected.
​It wasn't until 2024 that everything shifted.

​The phrase "lukewarm Christian" kept ringing in my head. When you grow up in a Christian household, people often assume you hold certain views or stand up for yourself in a specific way. For a long time, I just went with the flow, letting people see me one way even though it wasn't who I was on the inside.

​Then came 2024—a year where I desperately needed to change my life.
​It’s easy for people to judge from the outside.

Some past friends even called me "fake religious," which is almost funny to look back on. But here’s the truth: until you’ve gone through the darkest, hardest times of your life, you don't realize what it means to need an anchor.

​I tried holding on to people, and they disappointed me. I tried holding on to hobbies and distractions, and they left me empty. It took going through it to realize that the only true foundation I could ever hold onto—the only power that holds up—is Jesus. When I finally silenced out all the noise and cleared away the distractions, that connection took root.

​So yeah, maybe it took five years to hit that 2019 goal. But it happened when I needed it most.
​As we wrap up this year, I’m learning that evaluations aren't about punishing yourself for what you haven't finished—they're about recognizing the deep growth that happened when you weren't even looking