Trust in Him | Day in the life RCD

Hello RCD readers,

How was everyone their December? First let me wish everyone a Happy New Year.  I wish everyone is doing fine and embracing 2025 as best as they can. As I've had a hard but overall amazing 2024. I've lost a lot but also gained a lot. God showed me His blessings.  It was really a year of growing my faith. 

End of the year

The year ended so weird. I lost my second home after dancing for 28 years there. But it feels like when I lost my grandparents.  God gave me grace back then. And He gave me grace this time too. 

Losing my grandparents but feeling God's grace in the process

You see when my grandfather died I was 8 year's old and God gave me a dream the day before that gave me peace and calmed me down. That the morning when my dad picked us up from school earlier I knew he was going  to say that grandpa had died. We drove to say goodbye to him before they took the body. When I saw grandpa laying I could see his peaceful stare. It calmed me down because I knew he went peacefully in his sleep. You could see him with not creepy gentle smile. And when grandmother died I was 19 and saying goodbye to her after buying her adult pampers the day before. It was bittersweet because she was in horrible pain. But when we had to say goodbye to her deceased body it looked like the swelling was entirely gone she looked like she was never sick. I know it's a strange way of explaining this. But her peace for me was the lump that caused so much pain was gone from her body like she was finally free from the curse. That evil thing we all hate "cancer". 

God's grace again to soften the blow

And this felt like those past experiences. God gave me peace by letting me say goodbye. In ways that I didn't know I needed. By just embracing that place with the memories. By just being fully happy and present in the moment. Small little details. Like dancing with people I started with after years. By just dancing again after more than a year break. By filming which I hadn't done in a long time. And making a selfie which I never made. They were simple things. But they were out of my comfort zone and gave me peace. So when I got that call December 1st at night my heart sank. I did something out of character and went with a friend. I would be so mad at myself if I didn't. And this week I said yes to dancing there. Which is out of character for me. Knowing I'm a dancer not photogenic girl for films nor photos.  I even did my own make up which I thought was not okay with but I tried. I tried something which was hard for me. And I also choose to be in the back mostly because I knew my fellow ballerina does have that photogenic look and make up was on perfect. I knew she would make the clip amazing if she was at the forefront. And it worked. 

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Year of the snake

This year is my year. I wasn't going to talk about it because it's something I'm trying to let go from my past but it's a little harder for me. So I will not fake and be honest. I've read in bible to let go of believing in horoscopes etc. and believe in God. Trusting in Him with all your mind, body and soul. Not some horoscope telling you how your year will go. And honestly that is a hard one for me. Mostly because a lot of horoscope predictions were true in my life. Funny part I read them but I didn't follow them and still went through with what they warned me not to do. And what happened? The person was not a good friend or something did ending up happening which the prediction did say. But what I'm trying to learn myself is using my common sense in what is for me what isn't. And believing in God no matter where life takes me not a prediction to keep me away from harm.  And believing that if it's going to be good or bad I will need and only want God's presence in every step. Not a prediction that may or may not happen but God himself.

Honestly I want a good year

With that being said I'm going to be honest. I wish it is a good year because of the Chinese horoscope is my year. I would love for my blessings to come. And God knows what I'm praying for. It's between me and Him. I also hope that if God has other plans I follow them with no hesitation and believe is for my best. And I want the turnaround to happen this year. No buts.. we live on earth in a world itself that keeps getting scarier.  People have lost God's presence. Emphasis of real God. Not manipulating scriptures to maximize your pockets. Or changing scriptures to confuse people of God's words. Or being the coldest heartless person to nonbelievers but polite church goer. 

2013

You see I keep comparing 2013 to what can happen this year if I could wave my wand and just wish. 2013 was the year I had the successful operation.  It was the year I had finally chosen a subject for my thesis and started working at Sunecon. A well-known company. It was such an hectic year because I was bringing my mother early to work , going to work myself, picking up my mother after that and two days in the week dancing and other two or three days giving ballet classes. I was in my zone but also overworked. It was also the year I started my second relationship and longest for back then. The year ended with me finish with 1/4 of my thesis. What I also did was doing things out of my character.  You see the way I found my thesis subject, the way I found an internship and how I worked that year productively with me healing my body from a surgery was out of character. Plus it showed myself how fucking strong I am physically, mentally and spiritually. A small group of people around understood me and actually checked up on me. The most were gone and in their own bubble.  Some even couldn't fathom the work I was doing and made up stories how they thought I was actually spending my time. It was a year of big comeback and forgiveness. 

What will this year bring? I'm so nervous to even dream.  But I put my faith in Him only plus say my prayers to Him only too. For the Lord is the only way for peace, happiness and growth. Trust in Him.