Release Control | Day in the life RCD

 

Hello RCD readers,

Hello new week

Today is a new week. As I'm an early bird again. I think about what I need to do today.  My weekend did not go as planned.  I have a flu. Ofcourse after my ballet vacation just started.  My body said go rest. God said go rest. I don't have work to do today. Because I'm waiting on feedback, calls from building department and other project's are not ready for the design process. 

You can't control what people perceive from your physical outlook.

Friday I stayed to listen about eating healthy as a dancer. I listened because I noticed their was a little vibe that people spoke about my weight. I even got a tumbler. Which was super sweet but a def hint. " drink more". I have to point out I didn't snub them off when I actually had an appointment so I couldn't stay. But I did stay because I prayed for being more healthy and when God gives you opportunity to learn about that I should listen. What I got out of it. When I should eat. And how I should eat. But most important that there should be a variety in your food choice. It was informative but a lot I already knew. And I know my body. I know I burn more then I eat. Just as I drink.  

Pray for it so.. So try it

So I'm gonna try something.  And that would be make an effort to eat better and more on time. The point was eating before training good enough and eating after good enough.  Also what I hate the most my breakfast. I'm not a morning person eater. I can't keep my food down in the morning.  As a kid and as an adult. So I ate a little bit later. But what can I eat in the morning that will give me enough energy for the day. I can't control the result but I can try the input I do from my own side.

Your response is what's important fhe most

Last week was a beautiful peaceful week. Nope not everything is perfect but I'm choosing peace. And I'm slowly mastering it. I'm doing my happy dance.  I hate that gut feeling of being scared or overwhelmed or overstimulated. I feel at peace because I'm letting God take control.

I woke up early a lot last week and worked on my corrections from building department. I'm slowly getting used to this process and routine again. With all it's ups and downs. I only have control over my response towards certain situations. So I don't  let certain actions or responses or vibes bother me. I choose God's presence. And that means I don't need to overthink stuff and give it over to the Lord.

Releasing control is 

- me not overworking in the weekend and just taking a real weekend

- me not overthinking things like the costs of needing handy man's or things needing to be replaced because I know who is in Control and I'll be good.

- me not saying out of responsibility what I'm doing for ballet next schoolyear. But actually just seeing what the Lord wants from me and giving my choice time to make.

- not stressing about my relationships because it's not my responsibility how people perceive my actions nor their own actions. I can only do my best. If the person doesn't see that. I know it's hard but let go of the control

- not overthinking every move and  just focus what's in front of me

- me not holding on to my feelings. But also not holding them back but letting them out. With the strength to not let every feeling dictate my actions.

I'm in love with this version of me where I have faith the Lord has me no matter what comes at me. And understanding me regulating my nervous system is the best thing for me and the people around me. It gives me peace and joy by releasing control of things that are out of my control and in God's hands.