Kill the resentment | Day in the life RCD

Hello RCD readers,

Resentment has it's way to steal your joy. It has it's way to go on the negative fence. With of course good reason but it's very destructive and stagnant for your own growth if you do that.

And lucky me I'm doing that. Which is so annoying.  It's the hardest thing not go on what you've witnessed over and over again as response to anything. But trust in the good of other's blindly that have done you wrong. 

How do I even begin?

The forgiveness for some was really important from my side because I knew I needed to let that hurt go and be free to live a peaceful life. But I always hoped that resentment leaving and gaining trust came automatically.  I guess it doesn't. 

I'm learning that the forgiving somebody is not automatic being in their presence with no judgement and all trust.

Simple mother's love

I've noticed a mother's love. Where she can endlessly forgive and be like I will do everything for you no matter how much you hurt me. But it doesn't come easily for me. And it's bothering me because I don't feel like it is what God wants from me. It's not what He preaches to our souls.

God's word about forgiveness 

God talks about forgiveness.  God talks about being kind and not judgmental towards other's.  But showing grace so many times. I need help with that. I don't know what the right thing to do is. Because for a stranger it's easy. Boundaries up and if they can't meet me where I communicated to them then I just let it go. But when it comes to family .It's hard. You have results of other family members being effected and family dynamics also. It's always hard. Nothing seems fair. 

So as I'm having a hard time to stop being resentful towards other's. And actually give people a real second chance even when they aren't saying sorry or even trying to give closure. I need for my own peace of mind to change my headspace.

I pray not only for His guidance but also His grace and forgiveness that He has given me when I have failed Him.