Present day 2022 | Day in the life RCD

 

Hello RCD readers,

As I'm getting closer to my birthday. I thought about our present day. How my life is at this moment. You see today I'm celebrating my anniversary which is on Sunday.  But funny thing for somebody who is really private I would love to shout it on rooftop and let my partner profess his happiness. Of course I'm private for a reason. I don't like people saying dumb comments when it comes to people I love and knowing my Taurus zodiac will come out if you mess with my loved ones I always choose the people I share my private life with. So I'll think about what I'm willing to share about this.

Monday I talked about everything I've learned in the past. But thinking about my present year being 32. I would have to say I'm blessed and I know it. I have a lot on my plate but I'm proud of how I handle it. I would love to share the following things in my life currently.

Starting an online service website

This concept came to me during Covid lock down when my vision of starting my own business finally was halted because I didn't get a lot of work and work that I got where getting cancelled.  So I came up with something for the future.My partner is making the website for the last couple of years. But now I'm stagnating it because the layout is going to change again. Groups are not functioning as they should and need to go. My services need be changed after working last year again as a freelancer. And I need to come up with online consultations forms that are fitting for me. And this is going really slow. This is a project I wanted us to do as a team but it is kind of fictional at this point. But I need this to start my business and I can't wait anymore my blog and YouTube channel is going well so the online business is next step. And sweetheart will make it happen.

Splurging on our 9 year anniversary 

I worked really hard since last September.  Consistently with freelance employers. Some projects are still ongoing and I needed a break since the first year of this pandemic. And being able to splurge is something I'm so grateful God gave me that chance. I always look out to the month which I can make memories with my loved ones. And that was not possible. I did babysat my nieces and nephew's these years and try to make it fun. But going outdoor play dates with them is not possible.  And with my partner we haven't been able to go out and celebrate our anniversary like we use to since 2019. So this year I wanted to do this no matter what. I got my anxiety ass up made sure I set a date, that we paid for everything that we need and I bought myself bikinis to wear. I'm so excited because I love spending time with my partner.  I believe God made us for each other. I still can't believe we can feel so happy sometimes with a little small thing like reading together or driving to do groceries.  

Finding my peace in God 

This year I'm doing something that I need to do in my own pace and own way. Learn more about my religion but at my pace. I'm not going to things people tell me to go too because this is not about me looking like a better Christian in their eyes but getting closer to God without any distractions of other's inputs and loud voices what should happen.  I'm slowly learning my undeniable faith that I had before this world hurt me so much that I've created resentment towards others that have done me wrong. I have forgiven people but to trust them again was always a problem.  Especially when everyone keeps doing it again and again. And being the bigger person is getting harder. 

Stop being humble. 

You deserve to sit at that table

Every achievement I've celebrated inside but never by bragging which isn't really in me. But I'm learning that I shut people out from seeing me shine. That's why I sometimes miss my grandmother because she was so proud of my accomplishments and shared it to everyone. And to know where I am today I know she is looking down and being proud of the person I am today. Kind.. a woman with her own values and doesn't back down from them.. strong and persistent to make make my dream is a reality. And inspiring others to do the same. I'm really slowly being more vocal of my achievements. I don't smile awkwardly anymore when somebody makes a comment you are amazing I embrace it and see it as fuel to keep going.  I also try to help other's and I'm not afraid to show what I know. Never be scared to show why you deserve a seat at that table.

Dealing with difficult situations

I hate unnecessary conflict. I hate when a smooth work experience goes sour. But I'm learning not to let this effect me. For example my freelance employer and my civil engineer having a disagreement I feel. But I'm learning to work past this stay professional and do my work without losing any as a colleague.  Or for example another freelance employer wanted to do me wrong in each way. I stayed correct.  I held my ground and never did anything to get myself into trouble. After the third time of them trying to give extra work without paying for it. I made sure the corrections for the fourth time was not going to be free. I do wish God helps me get rid of this employer. Because they love working corrupted and that's never going to be me.

Learning to become a team 

My partner and I choose work styles that take a lot of time. We both let each other grow in the best version of ourselves.  We push each other to use the talent from God to our fullest. And with that of course we get less time for each other as always. But this year I'm pushing that we work as a team and communicate to spent more time with each other. Because my partner does forget our life will get busy and this is test from God to let us learn how to manage our time better. 

His year to shine

You see when my partner and I started I was trying to graduate. And I had to figure out what my adult life with work would look like. It took me two years to finally say I'm going to start RC Designs and begin as a blog. It took me five years to finally get client's of my own that I can live from and not freelance work only which I can't actually live off. Only save up and use the savings as investments.  But this year is his year. I can feel it. He is finally being noticed for his work. He is slowly being able to manage his lifestyle and I'm seeing the man I met again in the beginning of our relationship is amazing. He is making moves. He is falling and standing up. He is learning to manage his work. He is becoming more responsible for his own livelihood.  And what I love the most he is learning to manage being the kind helpful person he is without losing sight of his well being and his goals. This is his year. His blessing are coming and he is spiritually ready to receive them.

Recharge

I'm learning a recharge mentality. I'm slowly learning to say no and choosing my mental&physical state as a priority.  It's something I need to learn as a I want to create my own home in the future. I'm learning a balance and I'm learning what works for me to be functional. And taking me time is an important aspect in this phase of my life.

 

This year my goals are the following:

• Start an online business
• Support in every way I can to make sure my partner reaches that beginning success peak that I've known he would achieve.
• Stay financially stable.
• Find myself back in my faith
• Be my own person and not do anything just to make other's comfortable or happy. But respecting others differences  
• Learn to be forgiven to others who are assholes 

And I believe this year I will achieve two goals that I haven't written above but God knows what it is.