Blog day 13 | August 17th 2020

Fear is inevitable but how you deal with isn't.  I feel overwhelmed this morning.  Every morning when I've done my part and outside factors go off the rails, I feel like I'm failing. I've done my part and the best I could and because my work is done with no corruption I have to wait longer. 

Because I stay professional and do everything by the book. I get answers like " We have corrections" when the drawings  are already perfect or "Your drawing is still being checked" and when you come it has been checked month's before meaning they lied to you.

It's frustrating.  But there is a reason God is making me go through this but I'm not sure. Being a good person doesn't always goes as planned.  People try to push you in a way of doing business that we as a country are used to and having integrity is really foreign for a lot of people.

But focusing on good and honest to keep around you will help you stay sane and on the right path. 

So today I will put my worries in God. And focus on what I can control in life.  

Tomorrow I will go back and hope God takes over cause this is too long.  Praying for a good outcome.

If you have to deal with overwhelming.